Ng Chee Siang Jael. female. i was born in 27 oct 1991. i am 17 this year. loves doing random and weird stuff. like pulling down your pants. loves starring up the blueblue sky. loves japanese and korean dramas, as well as the hot dudes. best of all. she loves God.

i really wonder why people tend to put those "chim" nicks or whatever on thier msn. fine. i might be one of 'them' but i find it seriously weird now. wtf? okayy & the "chim" stuff they write dont really make sense. OR it might just be me PMS-ing. yah loh.

God spoke to me through a old man today. it kinda questioned my heart. it struck me as the person i am. & how i fail pathetically as a Christian.

fuck my pathetic self. its not just because of me failing as a christian. its also about why i hold on to the bloody hope. thinking about it more and more, it makes me angrier at myself- inner struggle you might say. now i realise i deserve all the hurt. how do you put this?: you know you're gonna get hurt , but yet you carry on with the crap. whoa. seriously, why am i made in this F-up way?

took me kind of long, but i am glad i realised. gonna stop hoping.

nice.

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